I’m just coming off of maternity leave and the job I was doing last year was given to someone else. I literally feel like the life was being sucked out of me the last three years. I felt like I wasn’t good enough (which was confirmed when someone else came in and did my job better) or smart enough or organized enough. I felt like I was struggling and even when I did something amazing the culture I was in still screamed it wasn’t enough.
Even with that in mind I still prayed and prayed that God would give me my old job back, and His answer was NO! Thank you Lord! I wanted to go back cause I was comfortable, and I knew the people and I knew the job even though the job was making be anxious and depressed – at least I had a job!!
So here I am, absolutely whole from being broken down by God the last six months. God told me no over and over again and now on the other side I understand why. He wanted to give me a new mind-set. He wanted to show me that my purpose in life was not teaching – it was to show Him glory and to live for Him.
I still don’t know if I need to find a new career but at least if I do have to go back – I have a new mind-set.